December 2012
1 post
I will always love you
Some days I’m happy, and im okay with it….other days, it still hits me pretty hard and i don’t know what to do…i just kinda have to deal with it…whats the point of telling you if nothing will ever change…you’ll just get pissy like the way that you do and it would just make it worse because its like what i feel doesn’t matter like its not important no...
November 2012
1 post
There’s a fine line between being independent and choosing to be alone. I don’t want to be alone but sometimes i don’t have a choice. And sometimes its in those moments that my brain thinks about stupid shit that i have to mentally shake myself and snap out of it. But it can be difficult to turn off those thoughts. And i don’t really ask for help because, from experience,...
August 2011
1 post
oh no no no no
the feelings…. are getting….. stronger….. oh no no no no….
July 2011
3 posts
“Your inner beauty shines — more beautiful than the way you look.”
– New Guy.
Silver lining
A month and a half… so much has happened…
In the month of June alone, there’s been relationships ending in break ups, separation, divorce… there’s been couples celebrating anniversaries, engagements, weddings, and births! Yes, these are all friends of mine. I know each and every person who had at least one of those happen to in the last month.
This merry month of...
It takes time.....
Four years. How did that go? Takes half that to get over it. Something to that extent.
I still love him. And I always will. I miss him everyday.
But I am done. I feel so drained… spent… making excuses, pretending everything is okay, holing myself up, being extra lazy!
I want to go out there and paint the town bright neon pink!
It’s almost a month now… it feels easier to...
June 2011
1 post
Trust your instincts.
After four years, I lost it all in one night.
The only mistake I did, the regret I have, is not ending it as soon as I felt it was over. I let it go on for so long thinking that something would change… but it just made me see that it just wasn’t going to work out. Be that as it may, I should not have waited so long, I should not have been playing games because in the end, I lost so...
May 2011
1 post
may21
I’m going ice skating with friends after work! I haven’t gone ice skating since I was twelve and I lack any and all skill that involves being on ice standing on thin blades. But we’ll get a group rate if enough of us go! Yay for cheap outings! :P
September 2010
5 posts
“Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please...”
– Galatians 1:10
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Longing to belong....
I didn’t always live here. I lived somewhere else. Despite of some stuff happening, I had a decent life — filld with great friends and it was just fulfilling — I even loved my job.
Living here has changed me in ways that I can’t even see the old me anymore. I’m still me but different — hopefully in a good way.
I made new friends of course but no one could...
5 tags
Questions of Faith?
In my heart, I believe in a lot of things that are true for me personally when it comes to my beliefs. I believe in one God — my God. I believe in having a personal relationship with my God. I pray so much more now than I used to… praying to Him is my way of having a closeness to Him — it justifies my relationship to Him. I am never truly alone. I know that God is always with me,...
Unfulfilled
Something is missing….
I go to church. I sing in the choir. I have a boyfriend I sort of live with. I have a job. Some friends….
It just doesn’t seem enough… I want more… what exactly?
It’s not that I’m lazy per say… just unmotivated. I know I know — it comes out to be the same thing.
I want to do so much more with my life but I’m so...
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“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in...”
– Proverbs 3:5-6 